Back Into The World
"Human" by Christina Perri
"And if today, all you did was hold yourself together, I am proud of you."
- from www.tinybuddha.com
Tomorrow I will begin going back out into the world... tomorrow I will go back to work for the first time.
Fortunately for me I have the support from my work that I can go back "slowly" which means a great deal to me. I don't know if I could handle a full workload right off the bat... but slowly integrating myself back into things is just what I need.
I love my job. I always have. And when my father passed, when my wife got sick, when my brother in law passed away... my work was my happy place. It was place I could go to really deal with my hurt... not escape it but DEAL with it.
Focusing on the health and wellness of others is very therapeutic in that it allows you to exhibit some level of control over things. Same when it comes to training yourself. Exercise is a measured attempt on your behalf to control your health. It doesn't GUARANTEE any outcomes but it certainly helps. Progress is measurable. Success is variable in that it doesn't always JUST mean running faster, lifting more, or doing more... most of the times success is achieved just by showing up.
The hardest part will be leaving my wife. We have been by each others side every second of the day for the most part since this all began. Again, I am so fortunate in that my job is 4 miles from my home and I am not required to work 8 plus hour work days. I can come home to her throughout the day even when I am busier so that is comforting. I just can't imagine being away from her very long right now.
This is going to be a big week.
This is going to be an impossibly hard week.
So many emotions seeing so many people for the first time.
I have no idea how it is going to play out.
But my faith and my babies give me strength.
I love you so much Graham and Savannah... Daddy and Mommy will make you proud I promise.
"And if today, all you did was hold yourself together, I am proud of you."
- from www.tinybuddha.com
Tomorrow I will begin going back out into the world... tomorrow I will go back to work for the first time.
Fortunately for me I have the support from my work that I can go back "slowly" which means a great deal to me. I don't know if I could handle a full workload right off the bat... but slowly integrating myself back into things is just what I need.
I love my job. I always have. And when my father passed, when my wife got sick, when my brother in law passed away... my work was my happy place. It was place I could go to really deal with my hurt... not escape it but DEAL with it.
Focusing on the health and wellness of others is very therapeutic in that it allows you to exhibit some level of control over things. Same when it comes to training yourself. Exercise is a measured attempt on your behalf to control your health. It doesn't GUARANTEE any outcomes but it certainly helps. Progress is measurable. Success is variable in that it doesn't always JUST mean running faster, lifting more, or doing more... most of the times success is achieved just by showing up.
The hardest part will be leaving my wife. We have been by each others side every second of the day for the most part since this all began. Again, I am so fortunate in that my job is 4 miles from my home and I am not required to work 8 plus hour work days. I can come home to her throughout the day even when I am busier so that is comforting. I just can't imagine being away from her very long right now.
This is going to be a big week.
This is going to be an impossibly hard week.
So many emotions seeing so many people for the first time.
I have no idea how it is going to play out.
But my faith and my babies give me strength.
I love you so much Graham and Savannah... Daddy and Mommy will make you proud I promise.
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